LifeThis is my life.Life
I am often mortified of how I’ve spent the last 30 years. I feel like I’ve not really understood its full meaning. What was I supposed to have accomplished again? I wanted to travel more – and I feel a little gypped that there has never been enough money for those types of ‘extravagances’. I need to re-prioritize. I need to really think about what I am doing and why. What are my motives behind my decisions? What needs to become a priority?
This is not what I intended to do tonight. I did not thin
More Important ThingsI woke up this morning feeling disorientated and confused. I startled myself out of a dream, one that was disturbing and even horrifying. I took some deep cleansing breaths, but the dream and all its intense detail stayed with me for a while afterwards. I was unable to return to my sleeping state, and lay awake watching the shadows move about my room. My kitten must have sensed my uneasiness, as she crawled up on my chest and made herself very comfortable, purring all the while, as if to tell me that I shouldn’t worry. However, her deep breaths against my heart only echoed the emptiMore Important Things
Nothing but your NameYou hurt me with your deceptions Tear at my soul You have the control With you there are no exceptionsNothing but your Name
I’m feeling more alone Then ever before You saw me to the door My passion for you completely blown
You saw it in my eyes The betrayal and hurt With me you’ll only flirt With us there aren’t more tries
I’m leaving here within; without This hurts to the core We’re still at the door I’m completely filled with doubt
Insecurities revealed Feeling only pain No thoughts to entertain My intentions unconcealed
Dont fall in love with meHe told me, “Don’t fall in love with me”. I couldn’t turn around. My heart was pounding as I repeated his words in my head. I was waiting for him to say something more, perhaps explain his peculiar statement. Nothing. I slowly turned and looked at him. He repeated those odd words to me, “Don’t fall in love with me”, this time with more conviction. I blinked and dared him in my head to repeat them once more, as if a chant would somehow make those words come true.Dont fall in love with me
I stammered something incomprehensible, even to me, rushing to find just the right wor
March 02, 2005
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i like light.
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"It's not stealing if you need it. And you need it."
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If you are not free to choose wrongly and irresponsibly, you are not free at all.
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& happy new year
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The year is drawing to a close; so much has happened over the past twelve months in my life, and in some respects I’m still trying to make sense of it all! DeviantArt has played a major part in my life over the past year – it has shaped me as a person more than University ever has – and I have all of you to thank for that.
During high school my father handed me a leather bag – I didn’t know what the contents were. When I opened it up I found to my delight an old Pentax 35mm with an assortment of lenses. I was thrilled. I had never tried my hand at photography before but immediately went out to the nearest store, picked up some film and joined the school newspaper. A week later I got my first rolls of film back – all underexposed and ruined. I had failed miserably and put the camera away in my closet.
In early 2003 I took a trip to Quebec City for the Winter Carnival – and I took the camera with me. In April of that year a good friend from High School introduced me to DeviantArt. I submitted some of my photos from the trip (that were not underexposed – hurrah!) and a handful of pencil drawings of Totoro. It didn’t take long for me to become hooked and soon I was taking pictures again and learning from other photographers. That summer I bought my first digital camera, and I haven’t looked back since.
As of this moment I have been taking on small commercial jobs, doing commission work and creating a portfolio that I will take to local galleries in early 2005. I have started to sell prints both online and offline, and I have started to think of photography as a serious profession down the road. Perhaps it will be as a photojournalist, perhaps as a researcher – maybe simply as an artist trying to capture the beauty around me. In the course of just over a year photography has become my one true passion – I can’t put the camera down, and I can’t stop flipping through books, magazine articles, collections etc. It truly is addictive, and it changes the way I view the world around me.
I owe this tremendous change in my life to all of you. Since the very beginning you guys have been incredibly supportive, and incredibly inspirational. The amount of constructive feedback that I have received is overwhelming to say the very least. The other rich aspect of this community is the ability to see what others see – I have enjoyed viewing your work since joining – there have been some very moving / thought provoking / gorgeous imagery produced. This artistic community is a blessing for those starting out as an artist, or for those who simply want to share or observe work.
I don’t want this community experience to end anytime soon – I hope to remain an active member of the site and play as much of a part in your lives as you have played in mine. Sometimes I do get busy with school etc, but don’t ever feel that I’m ignoring you! Leave a message; kick me from time to time (even a slap to the face will do). I say this from time to time, but I’ll say it again here – if you ever want feedback on your work just let me know – I really don’t mind stopping by to comment / offer input! It is always nice to see what other people are using their imagination and creativity to produce.
Regardless of what your background is, I hope that you find the time over the next couple of weeks to relax and sneak away from the hectic pace of life - enjoy the company of family & friends! All the best to you in 2005
Cheers,
Evan
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